The Mother's Day card I didn't get!

I got to typing and thinking about life and how truly blessed I am to have awesome children who honestly try to make my day special. I have 3 teenagers so its very easy for them to get "sidetracked" but they don't on this day. But, I also can't help but remember there is 1 hug, card, kiss, I love you, that I'm not getting. I think sometimes when does this heartbreak stop and I'm constantly reminded it doesn't b/c a piece of my heart is gone..it's in Heaven. There is joy and peace in knowing I will be reunited with her again. I know it will be a joyous day. But for now I will cry when I think of her and long for that day when I can hold her. I will remember her every Mother's Day, Christmas, July 1st, May 29th and Halloween and pretty much every other day in between. I will continue on some days as if nothing is wrong and those are the days when God has granted me that peace that only He can give. I know He is with me b/c those days....aren't everyday and He always assures me that she is perfect now which was her wish all along. I heard this song once that had nothing to do with what I took from it but it was called "If I Could Do It Again I Would Do It The Same" I have to admit for 1 more day with her I would go through it all again. As I looked through my 4 homemade cards from Bren I wondered what I would give to have a homemade card from Amelia. Ya know the ones on notebook paper with the funny lil drawings of "Momma" and you have to laugh about b/c you hope that's not what they see when they look at you. I treasure those cards more now than ever those are the ones that matter. As Darius Rucker put it..."It Won't Be Like This For Long"...sometimes it's shorter than we think. We don't get to choose when our kids grow up and we don't get to choose when they go Home but we do get to choose how much love we can show them. I had 7 years with Amelia and they were honestly the most trying years of my life but they were also the most rewarding. If God gave me the oppurtunity to do it again...I would b/c being her "Mommy" was worth every ounce of pain. I don't know what I did to get a child like her but I thank God He decided to bless me! I miss her dearly and I can't wait to get to that "Big House"



To my sweet Amelia:
You are a true "for real" princess now sweet angel and I will see you soon. Thank you for letting me be your mommy it was an honor.